Fear…it’s such a strong emotion yet is sometimes so elusive that it’s difficult to detect within ourselves. I don’t consider myself a fearful person, after all, I’ve traveled the world by myself, moved across the country (without a job!) and will try almost anything once. But, through my transformation, I have discovered that my fears are intangible. They are about allowing myself to capture true joy, nourishment, peace and happiness. I hold back from smiling as big as I want and talk myself out of taking actions that are good for me.
If the first step is identifying the emotions and reason(s) behind them, I’m well on my way to becoming fearless in all ways tangible and intangible!
I had to fast for a medical test the other day which turned out to be an interesting experiment. Not being able to eat all day really brought out my eating disorder – I wanted to eat the whole house and was planning the binge food I was going to buy when I could eat. You see, every restriction throws a binge-eater into a binge and this was no exception. However, I didn’t act upon my planned binge. I have noticed that the anticipation of the binge is more powerful for me than the actual activity of the binge. Is the anticipation a result of habit or do I really have the emotional and physical urge?
Since I’ve been binge-free since April 2013. I still plan binges but, interestingly enough, don’t act upon them when the time comes. I’m not sure why this is but I’m not going to look a gift horse in the mouth! Maybe when the time comes for the binge, my body wisdom guides me to nourish instead of gorge.
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It’s so wonderful to watch an animal, because an animal has no opinion about itself. It is.
I’ve had many psychic readings over the years (hey, don’t judge!) and was speaking about one in particular last night. The person to whom I was speaking said that the intuitive we had both seen was extremely accurate but I disagreed. The only thing I remember from that reading was that she predicted I would become a size 6 (I was on Weight Watchers at the time). Well, I never made it to a size 6. This struck me because it spoke to my state of mind for many, many years – that I was constantly focused on my weight. I realize now that I don’t want that to be my sole focus anymore. As with so many of my blog entries….this is easier said than done.
Does how we treat ourselves affect the way others treat us? If one neglects themselves, does that give silent permission to others to neglect us as well? If we don’t trust ourselves, does that mean we attract those who are untrustworthy? Is that what the law of attraction tells us?
If only I could lose weight. If only I could stick to a diet, I’d lose weight. If only the weather were nicer, I’d stick to my walk. If only I looked better, my life would be more fulfilling. If only, something would happen to make my life start.
If only I could “love what is,” I could lose weight, stick to a healthy eating and movement program and live a joyous and meaningful life…