I’ve gotten it in my head that I want to try a cleanse and I know I’m venturing into VERY dangerous territory.  You see, each food restriction or deprivation usually leads to a binge and a cleanse is just that.  It doesn’t make for a very good recipe (pardon the pun!).  I just can’t help thinking that it would be a good experiment.  Can I stick to it?  Will it throw me into a binge?  Will I feel better, more nourished?

I’m leaning toward foregoing it but I still have this lingering attraction to give it a try…

I’ve been in a pattern where I haven’t been eating very well.  I haven’t been bingeing so that is GREAT news but I haven’t been eating in a balanced way.  Instead of beating myself up about it (or bingeing about it!), I’m going to learn from it.  I know that I want to make a change because I’ve noticed that my digestion is off and that I’m not feeling nourished.  So, I’m going to listen to my body wisdom and start eating in a more balanced way to feel better.  Hopefully, the healthier body shape will follow!

“Why do you put your self esteem in the hands of complete strangers?”

~Helena Bonham Carter

I don’t think this quote needs commentary as much as it needs profound thought.

Enjoy, live and love!

xoxo, Michelle

Did you ever look back on life’s events and disappointments and wonder how it all happened or how it managed to work out?  There have been many times in my life where I was so bummed that something didn’t go the way I’d planned but, inevitably, I was always glad that things turned out the way they did.  It makes me think that there is a larger force in the Universe that is looking out for me and pulling the right strings at exactly the right time.  That faith has gotten me through some tough times and hasn’t failed me yet!

Sometimes I put so much pressure on myself to be perfect and do the right thing, that I forget to be in the moment and enjoy life.  It leads me to feeling trapped and dejected because the expectation to be perfect inevitably leads to my core belief that “I’m not good enough” or “I’m not doing enough” to meet my goals.   No one is perfect or can be perfect.  Perfection is an unrealistic expectation so why does it feel so crappy to fall short?

It’s National Eating Disorder Awareness Week! 

More people than you think are walking around with eating disorders.  It’s a difficult existence because not only do we struggle with food and body image constantly but most of us show our pain outwardly through the shape of our bodies.  Unfortunately, most people think it’s just a matter of eating more food (for anorexics or bulimics) or about eating less and exercising more (for bingers) to heal.  If it were that easy, we wouldn’t need an Eating Disorder Awareness week.

For more information on Eating Disorders, check out:

www.neda.org     ~or~          www.beda.org

I booked a trip to Colorado in May because I will be a conference (excited!).  Previously, when I’ve booked trips, I always counted the months until departure and calculated the amount of weight I could lose until I left .  I never, not even once, got close to losing the calculated amount of weight.  The urge to do this calculation is rearing its ugly head since I just booked a trip.  Instead, I will “love what is” and think about the people I’ll meet and the friends with whom I’ll reconnect instead of torturing myself with more numbers.