I’m having a photo session today to get a professional head shot taken. As you can imagine, it has produced a little anxiety and negative body image thoughts. Figuring out what to wear was challenging – I want to look professional but not stuffy, most of my clothing is dark because it hides my wobbly bits but I don’t want to look monochromatic. Then there’s the whole looking in the mirror a million times to figure out what looks good which is hard because I practice mirror avoidance – often. Oh yeah, I forgot to mention that I hate looking at photos of myself. Yikes!
As I’m writing this, I see a lot of negative emotions and eating disordered thoughts but then realized that mostly every woman has these same insecurities. Maybe they’re not eating disordered thoughts but womanly thoughts. Too bad we feel the need to beat ourselves up so much. Regardless, I’m going to suck it up, show up to the shoot, have a good time, act as though I know I look great and hope the photographer can work miracles…minus the photo shop!