Compulsions

I have a need to intellectually understand my binge-eating disorder so I read A LOT!  One of the books that is really resonating is by Mary O’Malley entitled The Gift of Our Compulsions.  Ms. O’Malley writes:

“We live in a story in our heads that is always trying to get us to “do” life, telling us we need to make ourselves and our lives better or different from what they are.  In our endless trying, we have forgotten the awesome power of simply paying attention to what we are experiencing in this moment.  We have forgotten how to be.  We have also forgotten how to trust ourselves, to trust our lives, and to live in joy.  So we turn to our compulsions to numb ourselves out from all our struggles, only to find ourselves struggling with our compulsions.”

Mindfulness

I became very interested in Buddhism when I began to see a therapist who uses mindfulness as one strategy to treat me and my Binge-Eating Disorder.  Thanks to her, I practice mindfulness meditation once a day and mindfulness throughout the day which is at the heart of Buddha’s teachings.

Thich Nhat Hanh is a Vietnamese Buddhist monk who writes, “When we are mindful, touching deeply the present moment, the fruits are always understanding, acceptance, love, and the desire to relieve suffering and bring joy.”  

Since I started practicing mindfulness (and when I remember to focus on the present moment!), I find myself less stressed out, less annoyed and more tolerant.  Focusing on the present moment allows for thoughtful processing of situations instead of knee jerk reactions causing regretful behavior.  As with most things, I work at this everyday but it’s not a burden, it’s my blessing.  Enjoy, live and love today!